I just wanted to say that I am secretly geeking out about the new x-files movie! The show has been on since what? 1993 or so? I remember waiting in line to see the first film in 1998! I was 13 or 14. Its been 10 years since the last movie, and I abandoned watching the show when Mulder left after season 6. He was the main character! Even if you argue that it had two main characters, imagine Cheech and Chong movies with no Chong. Sad huh? I know I'm holding onto my childhood or something, but I will totally see the new X-files movie in theatre, even if it is by myself.

Current Location: Home unfortunately
Current Mood: geeky

Why is boys the the topic of such despair for me? How in hell do I get myself in these relationships?? I am a bad person, I decided. My current man is so perfect for me in so many ways! BUT I ask him to dress up for Christmas with MY FAMILY and he blows his lid! I am a bad person because when he asked why he had to dress up for MY FAMILY i thought, " I need a man to love me and be my accessory." I need a man who is selfless enough to let me win, to let me be first, to let me get some attention, dress up for me, drive me around, listen to me, talk with me, be my partner in crime, hold me when I cry...... I am a good woman and will do just about anything for my man, but I also have high expectations for the men in my life. I don't know if I will ever find what I am looking for. I feel defeated, I think that all straight men are too scared to let me be the bitch. Anyway, Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.

Current Mood: aggravated

I don't even think you read these... so even though I've found you again, I'm back to talking to myself to make myself feel better. You'd think I was a crazy fool. I just don't have many friends, so my true friends are old soulmates, apparently nothing more. My debut fashion show is finally over! SIGH! A HUGE breath of relief!!! and the second fashion show was a hit!! IN fact I have pictures from my first fashion show on MYSPACE... you should check it out, just cuz I want you to. The second fashion show was a charity benefit and make my heart all warm and mushy inside. I also entered an Alpaca fiber contest, since I have such an interest in the ecofriendly market. I heard back and dont know if I placed yet, but they would like to use my dress in a fashion show in Las Vegas in January. IM SO EXCITED!! IVE DONE WELL!! Well, I go to Hawaii for Thanksgiving... you know what Im gonna do???? NOTHING!! FUCKING NOTHING!!! AND IT WILL BE THE BEST WEEK OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1MIss you friend... write me back someday...

Love Aud

HI Alan... LIfe is absolutley insane. My debut fashion show is in only 8 weeks! So my whole designer theme for this particular fashion show is that... "we only have one resource, we have damaged our earth and life on it so much that we need to find more responsible, ecofriendly, and sustainable materials to use for our clothing." I am interested in Bamboo, Hemp, Organic Cottons, Corn Husk, Linen, Silk, alpaca....etc Im not exactly a hippie... maybe a modern day version, but I also believe in eating meat and having organic leather or fur clothes. It is hard to sell and make alot of money with this theory, because it costs alot more money to find people to use responsible farming methods whether it be with plants or proteins. SO.... I went to Las Vegas on August 27th to see the largest fashion show in the world!! BUT the night before it I totaled my car... I have never crashed a car nor do I have anything on my insurance record, and I looked away from the road for 5 seconds and crashed into a light pole!! It was so scary, I do not remember much after the big hot fist of an airbag punched me in the face! But I hit a light pole that went into my windsheild and caved in my roof 6 inches from my head. I am so fucking lucky to be alive. SO Vegas was a little bittersweet, however inspiring. I am now struggling to get my $10,000 car loan covered and get a new car, so I can continue making clothes for my fashion show. I have sooooo much to tell you, but that is the current crazyness that is my life... Tell me about you!! I miss hearing from you... call me one day k?

Current Mood: stressed

Went to see Tool again! I was in the pit this time... as always it was unbelieveable!!! Especially because Danny Carey had to postpone the show due to an injury... He had some wicked drum solo's that I have not heard before! I guess to show that he is all healed! I was so close to Maynard!! AND they played 10,000 days which I thought was extremely appropriate since my Pop Pop just passed.......I brought my little brother!! Fuck yea! He now wants to go to every concert that he can mosh at..........It was also the first Tool concert I saw without my Ex, I thought it would be hard, but I brought a bunch of good guy friends and it was just as amazing!!! I dont need anyone to enjoy Tool. All my Arizona friends were skeptical that I would get any buds in too, but who do they think I am???? I will always have joints at the Tool concerts.....Fuck security! Anyways, back to school.......



Audrey

Current Mood: high

I don't know why I'm frightened, I know that you dont bite hard,
But I've missed you so, I've been speaking though, I'm not heard.
I miss the deep conversations, and friendship we created,
I've grown so much, but not enough to forget you.
I don't want to be alone, thats all in the past
I have waited long enough, I'm living life at last.
Please find me on this website, this information highway,
I tried today, not just today, but always...

Current Mood: determined